by James C. Stephens


June 1, 1978

“The prime point of the Gakkai is, and always will be, the people. Never forget that our prayers and exhaustive efforts to protect their happiness will give rise to true human justice.”  -Daisaku Ikeda

Hawk and Rabbit

Again I struggle with my dark nature. Feeling defeated in business I feel like crawling into a corner. However, I only realize there is no corner. I feel like a rabbit being stalked by a hawk on the prairie. The only place I have felt left to turn is inward to myself for the answer. I am chanting to the Gohonzon to overcome this.

Night before last I kicked a member out of my house or basically I asked him to leave. I am not a very poignant example of a leader I’m afraid. At 27 Pres. Ikeda was something else.

The worst part of it is, I don’t regret it. I sincerely feel he got what he deserved. If after all I have tried to do for the guy, he tells me that what I say is full of crap and he just wanted to give me a second chance. And whether or not I descended to his level or not, I’d kick anyone out of my house. I sincerely hope and have been chanting that he realizes something from it. I am already.

Possibly I handled the situation wrong as my Chapter Chief Mr. Dixon suggests. I didn’t see him with true mercy. I’m sorry I just can’t buy all this stuff yet. I’m not a Buddha A-1. I am not his parent, I am more closely a brother. I’m not perfect. I chanted for his happiness before he came over. I can’t help it if I acted or reacted in the way I did. I believe one has to be true to his feelings about certain things. All I can do is try to get something from what Bob Dixon said.

June 15, 1978

Notes from Young Men’s Division Soka Group meeting:

Soka group formed November 2, 1976.

To take care of everyone, Soka Group should study a lot, (Gosho).

To protect all members.

To become capable leaders in society.

To develop ourselves as individuals.

Mr. Saito in Japan.

To challenge difficulties in life. Trash group–behind the scenes. I must challenge egoism.

Role of Soka Gakkai in 1979.

Dave Martinez Soka Group Chief.

Daily campaign.

Develop younger Soka group members.

Mr. Williams.

To be a Soka Group is greatest honor and privilege.

You are President Ikeda’s group.

Vanguard of all campaigns.

Soka Group should read three books:

–Gosho

Human Revolution Vol. X

Ode to Youth.

These three books are the important key to develop your spirit.

Volume X=Spirit of the Soka Gakkai.

Soka Group Mottos:

  1. To protect all the members. Yamamouchi-TCD who saved women from death.
  2. To take care of members–courtesy, bright way.
  3. Behind the scenes- Itoko wa wareba–behind the scenes efforts, visible benefits you will enjoy someday.

Don’t be swayed by trivial You are crown prince, lion cub. Like Samarai you need a place to fight. When Samarai has no direct lord, they ask other lords if he can fight for them. Without district meetings, where can you fight for Kosenrufu? Or be idealistic?

You are in a district. You fight. You are the vanguard. Jet engine. Tremendous.

Leader without experience—miserable! Leader gains wisdom through experience. Don’t avoid problems. You are keyholder. Chant for kosenrufu. More problems–more progress.

It takes flint and a rock to make a spark. Youthful energy is only produced by putting our views on the line with the understanding they could be wrong, but realizing this is the course to laying our foundation of life philosophy.

June 21, 1978

“Throughout our campaign, let’s protect our fellow members and compensate for each other’s shortcomings. Let’s forge on in unity, radiant and light hearted.” —President Ikeda’s Daily Guidance.

Now that I have had some time to think about the situation with T.., I readily agree with Mr. Dixon’s analysis of the situation. I sincerely regret causing anymore ill feelings between us. Only my shallowness remains to be examined. I will apologize to him at the earliest opportunity. I am worried about his health, he has never been too well and I heard a report yesterday that he went to the Veteran’s hospital and had a conference with a psychologist. Evidently he broke down crying during the encounter. I must take action. I must overcome my shallowness in feeling, etc. toward my responsibility as a human being!

Sunday morning we had an RSG meeting with Tony Sugano. It was quite high spirited. I gave a RSG experience on my January 1971 near death experience and being saved by a fellow RSG Ron Thruelson.

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My Brother Ron and his first wife Pam, a helicopter pilot.

Sunday afternoon Liz and Dad and I celebrated Father’s Day with dinner. It was an enjoyable day. At 5:00 or so Pam, Ron’s wife, Mom and Carol stopped by. Though unexpected, the occurrence was interesting. Pam stayed for awhile and just when we were all getting into a good conversation, Mom and Carol returned from the bar and everyone left.

 

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